At some point or another every single one of us has had anxiety over something in our lives. My anxiety has only increased since becoming a mother. To feel entirely responsible for another human being is a huge undertaking that can make any one breathe a little quicker. I am finding that anxiety also comes along with age. The older we get the more we are exposed to the terrible things that go on around us. This can leave us feeling worried all the time about things that have happened and even about things that haven’t. The definition of anxiety is the feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome. The synonym listed is fear.
I have recently questioned my life as I have had the opportunity to listen to testimonies in Bible study. All of these women have had terrible things happen to them which in turn bought them closer to God. In my mind I started thinking, “What terrible thing is gonna happen to me for God to bring me closer to Him?” I have been feeling anxious wondering what this terrible thing would be. Fear was starting to settle in, when it does, it grips on tightly. My sweet husband reminded me of part of the simple verse, “Be anxious for nothing.” It hit me like a ton of bricks. How can I be so blind to not see satan behind all this. When I live in fear my eyes are on myself. That is the last place they need to be. Even the fear of inadequacy, our eyes are still on ourself.
This God we serve is a God of love who works ALL things out for good to those that love Him. He tells us to be anxious for nothing but in every thing give thanks and make your request be made known unto God. This is a command. Isn’t this where happiness is? To know that I am safe just as a child feels with their Dad. He equips, protects, and pours blessings even in ways we may never expect. This is all such a simple truth, but can get lost so quickly due to our incapable minds of understanding God. The good news is we don’t have to understand or try to figure Him out, we only have to trust. Then there comes the letting go of our need for control… good grief I could go on and on…
My conclusion is that God is good all the time, all the time God is good. I’m so thankful it’s not all up to me, He’s got this!