Can I Be Honest?

Ya’ll I’m not lying when I tell ya that ever since I wrote my post about perspective last week the devil has been on me, and I have had a very hard time having a thankful heart. Its been a great, but challenging week. At times it just feels like death, sickness, and disappointment are lurking around every corner and it can hard to be thankful when you are anxious about what could go wrong. I have learned this week that I want to drink  up every bit of this life till the last drop. I want no regrets. Not the bungee jumping kind of stuff but the quality purposeful time stuff. This very moment my heart has been absolutely torn up over a mother I know who’s son we are praying for a miracle to save his life. With all of these injustices of the world on top of  the normal stressers of life it is hard to always find contentment in the Lord.

 

I have also been having issues with feeling overwhelmed about staying on top of all my responsibilities. There is the budgeting, meal planning, homeschooling, cleaning, Bible studies, meeting the needs of family members, and returning phone calls that have had been so bogged down this week. In fact, just the other day I was so annoyed with myself that I thought about putting a post on Facebook to let every one know what a big fat phony I am and how I can’t even take heed to my own advice about keeping my perspective with God where it needs to be. I am the kind of person that when I feel there is a problem standing in my way, I just want to fix it… NOW. I have seriously contemplated selling everything we have got, buy a big camper on a piece of land, and start over. I fear I may be trying to run from problems at times, but when I think about my reasons maybe its just a realistic solution that I am crazy enough to take.

 

Please forgive me as I rant about my issues, but just maybe someone else needs to here about my problems:) So hear are my issues and how I want to eliminate them.

1)I am tripping over clutter and stuff all day long rather it be from my kids, my husband, but most of the time myself. I feel that I spend way too much energy just keeping up. I’m loosing those precious moments to minister to my children, family, and friends. Even a phone call I’m returning can turn into a big deal. My thought process automatically thinks DOWNSIZE! With less rooms = less mess. Out of necessity you have to get rid of clutter and only have your essentials. Imagine your children only having the toys that they actually play with at their disposal. Wouldn’t that be wonderful? The time I spend cleaning messes all day could be used for reading to the kids, doing all the darn crafts they love, or simply doing something, anything with them without multitasking 10 other things.

 

2) debt, debt, debt… We currently only own on our mortgage, but let me tell ya that it drives me crazy! I hate it! We are working diligently to pay it of as soon as possible, but most of the time I feel that it isn’t good enough. My solution, DOWNSIZE. I don’t want to waste another year of my husband working his but off to pay for a place for us to live. If we are going to work then let it be for the good of others or even our children’s future. I would rather invest in the time in them having their daddy home and invest in the lives of others who aren’t as fortunate rather that be financially or with time. We are called to help. How can we if we are to busy working to pay the mortgage off?  Sometimes I try to tell myself to relax but there has to be a reason why it is so passionate in my heart.

 

3)Disciplining the kids. It can be very frustrating to be upstairs and hear your children fighting down stairs. Another awesome solution is to DOWNSIZE. Sure it would be tough to not have as much space but what would it be like to be able to discipline and train right along side of them all of the time.

 

Perhaps I am naive but it seems that the problem is our attitude to have more stuff, and in the meanwhile our discontent grows and our distractions and to do list double. Yes, I am thankful for a nice home, 4 bedrooms, my husband’s job and work ethic, and every toy and kitchen gadget you could imagine. I am also thankful for clear vision of the order in which priorities belong. I don’t want anything to hinder me from experiencing God’s blessings and giving them to others. My mind has been cluttered and I’m ready for the challenge to be different and prioritize my life.

 

…Fast Forward….

 

okay…fast forward a few hours when I typed out the beginning of this post. I have talked with my husband who settled this crazy girl down. Ya know, to be a relaxed and go with the flow kind of girl I can get wound up at times pretty easily:) I was tempted to delete all I had written, but thought some my appreciate a look in to my heart. (Even though as I my fingers were typing my blood pressure was through the roof!) Tim reminded me that no matter how good my intentions are, God still has His own agenda that I play a part in. After all like I’ve said before, it’s not about the circumstance but…sigh… my perspective. God, keep working on this poor girl!

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9 Responses to Can I Be Honest?

  • Mrs. Abella says:

    Amen sister!

  • Melissa Meyer says:

    I love the idea and have thought about it many times. I spoke to your husband a little bit about your dreams at the picnic, which I didn’t know about. I did hear about the disappointment when the property fell through. Your the one who would probably tell me that “God has a bigger plan”. Put the past behind and reach for the future. I would love to grow my vegetables and I’d have animals…..of course. Would like the peace of having no neighbors, well, not too close of neighbors anyway where my son could run in the yard and play and I didn’t have to worry about him getting hit by a car…it’s what makes you happy. I constantly get rid of things. Of course, there are certain things that I feel are sentimental but, other than that I am constantly getting rid of Jordan’s things he doesn’t play with that someone else can enjoy. There is nothing wrong with that. I’ll come help you with your mess girl. Give me a call we can box it up have a yard sale or thrift store, women’s shelter. You name it. 🙂

  • Elisabeth says:

    I am SO with you. We’ve been hit by a veritable “perfect storm” of problems that all have a financial impact, so we’re really at the “how are we going to put food on the table tomorrow” point and it definitely wears on me and takes my perspective off of where it should be.

    It doesn’t make you phony, it makes you real. And sharing it with us helps the rest of us not feel so weird or horrible for having “off” moments when we don’t quite keep it all together. Thank yhou so much for the encouragement!

  • Gertrude says:

    Hi Brittany, I’m really sorry you were feeling this way. I’ve felt the same way many times but let you rightly said, that’s the devil bugging you and making you feel less than what God says you are. I don’t know you but I am pretty sure you are a great mother, a wonderful wife and Christian. Keep at it. Focus on Jesus when it seems hardest and above all PRAY ! Remember that you are loved by a relentless Lover !

    I’m Gertrude. I found your blog over at the Time Warp Wife Blog and wanted to say hi. Have a wonderful day !

  • Donna Short says:

    Brittany, do you have any idea how much of an encouragement you are to me…and countless other people? None of us can hold it together all the time. It is funny, but I have been struggling with many of the same issues. Well, not kid clutter, but clutter of material things, emotional and spiritual clutter, and financial problems that have haunted me for way too long. I often feel like downsizing, too, or just plain running away…LOL! Tim is right. God has a plan and unfortunately He only gives us enough light to stay on the path and see the next few steps we are about to take. Relax…and live one day at a time. It’s all good! Read my blog post about Cleaning Out The Cob Webs Of My Life and get some,,,,perspective. 🙂

  • Theresa says:

    I have been trying to just live day by day. If I try to look into the future, the “what ifs” start to stir up untold anxiety. What if ….my husband gets sick, my child gets hurt or rebels, persecution comes…..etc,etc,etc. Satan loves to keep us fretting over things the Lord has told us not to worry about. When I go day by day, I have peace that passes understanding. I know who holds the future, and must continually set my heart and mind on that.

  • Overwhelmed has been my.middle name lately. I know I’d see everything from a better perspective if I was reading my Bible more than what I am.

  • Amen Sister!

    Keep working on this poor girl too! Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing your heart! It is always a comfort to know that we as sisters in Christ endure the same type struggles. It is encouraging not to go it all alone.

  • Ann says:

    Hi, Brittany! We moved last year and downsized, and even though there are many perks(especially financial) to this change we’ve made, somehow there is still clutter that even our much smaller house collects! We got rid of half our stuff when we moved and still our house seems bursting at the seams at times. It really is about perspective and remembering what really will matter 5 or 10 years from now. Yeah, I’d love to have a clean house all the time, and I still do work at trying to keep up, but if I stress out over it too much, that affects the whole household and sets the atmosphere of tension. There still are days I get fed up….so I understand that feeling. Sometimes talking it out with someone (like your hubby) is a great help, as we get another’s perspective, as well. Thanks for sharing from your heart! It would have been easy to erase it, but blogging isn’t about only writing abut the good stuff in life.
    Blessings, Ann @ Christ in the Clouds
    http://christintheclouds.blogspot.com/


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