I Am Giving Up

Published May 1, 2015

I am giving up on this dreamy fairy tale we call motherhood. This entire year I have been pushing on every side to fit us into this pretty wrapped box complete with a handmade bow with time for coffee afterwards.

It. Has. Been. Exhausting.

I am throwing in the towel, I can’t do it. Done, done, and done.

Let me reveal the messiness of true motherhood. There are no beautiful morning rituals with coffee and Bible. There are no guaranteed glorious nap times. There aren’t always children playing and laughing together. Most days school time isn’t filled with nature walks and read alouds on the porch. Most nights it’s not over just because it’s bedtime. Schedule, what schedule?

The thing is, I’m giving up in order to gain.

There are far too many uncontrollable factors. What I give up selfish perfectionism I gain in beautiful perspective. Really, its refreshing and straight from a good God who desires me to experience joy in doing His work.

This is my life.

Unpredictable, busy, chaotic, full, beautiful, messy, sweetly simple, lovely, and everything I could have ever dreamed of.

Ladies, it’s time to give it up.

3 Responses to I Am Giving Up

Donna Short says:

May 1, 2015 at 7:49 pm

Thanks for the reminder. I need to remember this, too, even with all my kids grown and out of the house. I still strive for perfectionism and weigh every move against whether I measure up or not. I need to follow your advice and give up!
katrina says:

May 2, 2015 at 2:15 pm

Amen, Sister! As soon as I gave up I became more calm. It’s been a long road, so far, but I still have to let go. I still have moments of frustration when I thought I was going to get a moment to do something that I wanted to do, and then someone needs something! It’s a serious roller coaster and constant effort to just let go. Thanks for posting!
samantha says:

May 4, 2015 at 10:39 am

thank you very much for this post. I am waiting to give birth to my third child and with it I will be quitting work and staying home. I know it will be very hard for me but hopefully with the grace from God I will not screw my children up too much. thanks again and God Bless