I Am Giving Up

I am giving up on this dreamy fairy tale we call motherhood. This entire year I have been pushing on every side to fit us into this pretty wrapped box complete with a handmade bow with time for coffee afterwards.

It. Has. Been. Exhausting.

I am throwing in the towel, I can’t do it. Done, done, and done.

Let me reveal the messiness of true motherhood. There are no beautiful morning rituals with coffee and Bible. There are no guaranteed glorious nap times. There aren’t always children playing and laughing together. Most days school time isn’t filled with nature walks and read alouds on the porch. Most nights it’s not over just because it’s bedtime. Schedule, what schedule?

The thing is, I’m giving up in order to gain.

There are far too many uncontrollable factors. What I give up selfish perfectionism I gain in beautiful perspective. Really, its refreshing and straight from a good God who desires me to experience joy in doing His work.

This is my life.

Unpredictable, busy, chaotic, full, beautiful, messy, sweetly simple, lovely, and everything I could have ever dreamed of.

Ladies, it’s time to give it up.